He Always be There for You

By Farah Mayu - August 18, 2021

It has been a long time never sharing my story with anyone. But this, by the will of Allah I hope that you can get the benefit inside of every message, inshaAllah.

One night, it was that kind of everything. A special night when I got a certain answer for my forever wondering question.

It was about how huge, how enormous, and sincerely my love to My Lord SWT.

This man succeeded in reminding me of Him because that early morning had been opening my heart and eyes further. 

I realize that I love Allah more than anything. I put 1000% or even countless trust only to Him. My life, my everything has been relying upon Allah because somehow even the word of "My" should be referred to Allah's possession. There's no me inside of me. The "me" belongs to Allah, I belong to Allah. 

So, everything in me is Allah's belonging. The heart, the mind, the body, the eyes, the ears, the hands, the mouth, the whole caboodle belongs only to Allah.

I know it takes time and deep comprehension before you get what I mean. Wait until you truly understand it, neither by words nor one's explanation instead by your sincere heart with a pure vision. 

Trust me. Eh no no no, trust Allah.

"And whoever puts all his trust in Allah, He will be enough for him."
(At-Talaaq: 3)


So, I remember words from the book, which said,

"When we say 'Ya Rabb, Ya Allah', every time we call upon Allah, each dropped tears in front of Allah, He will be a hundred times faster than anything to answer your call with 'I'm here, I'm here, I'm here my beloved slaves.' "

MashaAllah He is always there. How beautiful it is. 

It brings a wave of peace. 

Very.

Extremely.

By this, it reminds me of my journey how could I be as a recent me.

O n e d a y . . . . .

I have started my journey in March 2019. Can't say the specific date, the day I decided to change myself to become a better one of my old self. Neither I did look for one's love, nor did mean that I could compare myself to someone else. Also didn't mean to find a future husband and this and that. No. I did it for the sake of Allah.

What did the first action that I do?

I change how the way I do 5 times prayer a day.

Prayer. 

I wanted to fix it.

Why should start from Salah?

I remember a speech from an Islamic Scholar said,

"If you want to change your life, then change your Salah. Fix it, so you will have a better relationship with Allah."

What does it mean?

For instance, whenever it's prayer time I delayed doing so, I didn't really care for doing it on time as long as I could do it, so I could make it even later. At that time, I knew I was wrong so I needed to change the way I did it. How? I made a commitment to always do it on time, each 5 times prayer a day. Always. In the beginning, it was hard, I forced myself to be able to do this. I pushed myself out of the limit. The idea of finishing whatever things I was doing when the adhan calling, getting more trigger than did the prayer first. So tempting. 

The first step is never easy. But the feeling that comes after defeating feels so deliberating. 

It's like, "YES! I DID IT! Alhamdulillah. Little by little, InshaaAllah."

Why should Salah (Prayer)?

It's the second pillar of Islam.

It's the root, the key to maintaining our life steady. Prayer is the connection a human being especially a Muslim establishes with the Creator and consists of total submissiveness to Allah, turning to Him and seeking His support and assistance.

When we stand in prayer before Allah, raise our hand asking for Him, and remembering Him, our mind becomes serene. It shows our vulnerability, releases our true and deep sense of nothingness, powerlessness.

Once again we should focus to fix our salah before fixing other aspects of our life.


Please, never give up to fix your relationship with Him. Trust Him because He is always with you.

Before ending up this article, I would like to present one of my favorite writings either also as a reminder for me or for the reader. 

Allah is always with you ––––  "Do not fear for Allah is with us." (Qur'an 9:40). In the darkness of the night, beneath the blanket of depression, on the days you long for the desert to cover you with its blowing snads, on the nights you imagine ocean waves to groq to the height of mountains pulling you close into the depths of its soul in current that none can escape, on the days the sadness is like a thousand knives masked in butterflies in your stomach, when the whole world is falling apart a wintery leaf at a time as you watch everyone who said they would be there leave like you are an autumn tree and the softest breezze of difficulty sheds you of all your protective layers, when you have nowhere else to turn, when every bridge you built was burned, when your heart is not broken but shattered into dust into a shape that can't be salvaged, when the moon is swallowed by the darkness of despair, when the sun sets into the ocean of your hopelessness when you feel like a dark ant on a dark stone in the darkest od nights do not be sad God sees you, God is here.

 

You don't have to find Him or seek for Him or deserve His presence because His proximity to you is not based on you and your actions but Him and His unconditional Love. Don't close your eyes, don't shut your eyes, don't shut off your mind, don't pull the plug on your sensitive heart, stay soft no matter how hard it gets, stay open, no matter how many stones are chuck or wells you are thrown in or giants you face or tyrants come to oppress you or people mock you, trust the help will coe, trust that Allah will open a way where no way could be seen. Oceans will part, floods will come, and elephants will kneel, because by the command of your Lord fire is made cool and camels emerge from stone so whatever your pain is, whatever despair you feel know that Allah is with you. That if He finds you lost He can guide you, that if He finds you poor He can make you rich, that with Him near no miracle is too far to be reached so do not label anything impossible for He is the Creator of all that is. The peace you seek is spreouting from inside, be patient any day now it will push passed the fertile soil of the unseen, poking its head passed the surface of your consciousness. Just wait a little longer, your spring is just around the corner waiting to blossom, like a rose opens towards the light no matter how many nights you have to face to breathe in the dawn, promise me promise me you will unfold yourself when the light arrives. Promise me, promise me you will trust the Divine! – Written by A. Helwa

Thank you~ 

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